Broken Pattern: A Stream of Consciousness is my first published book. It started out as a blog by the same on my first blog: http://www.dogwalks.blog.com. At this time, the url has been snagged from under my nose, and the original posts have been relegated to the files on my computer.
After my first year of CEGEP (Collège d’Enseignement Général et Professionnel, aka grade 12 in Quebc), I wanted to know just how much I had written, and drawn. Importing all the words and pictures into a Word document, I was surprised to find out that I had over 100 pages of material. I printed it up (my girlfriend at the time worked at UPS) and started showing it to friends and family. The verdict was unanimous: it was to be printed as a book.
I still remember the cover page I imagined: black leather with the word CEGEP debossed top center in gold. A lot changed since then, but it’s fascinating to remember it so crisply after all these years.
Before I knew it, I was working with my mom’s agent and a publishing company. They convinced me that CEGEP/Broken Pattern was going to be the next big thing, and after all the money had gone through, they would be eager and excited to promote it.
At this time, 1 year had passed and I had graduated CEGEP. My friends were filling out university applications and I was preparing to move out, take a year off, and pursue my artistic endeavors as a full blown career. You can imagine how enthusiastic and naive I was, and consequently how easily I could be taken advantage of. We had studied Oedipus and his hubris in English class, and only now, four years after writing and two years after publishing, do I realize the beauty of dramatic irony.
I decided to post the original concept of CEGEP/Broken Pattern as opposed to the refined PDF I received from the publisher (he told me he would no longer edit the manuscript and what I received was the final edition, despite any errors or incongruities). It’s not as pretty, but it has all the words as they were originally typed, and images that didn’t manage to make the final cut. I do this for several reasons:
- It’s a link between the original postings on dogwalks.blog.com and the printed version of Broken Pattern
- It’s the most accurate portrayal of what I hoped to publish
- At this time, as I am no longer under contract with my publishing house, I would love to republish CEGEP/Broken Pattern based on my original manuscript.
I don’t regret the experience, rather, as Bill Anthopolis taught me, I charge it to experience, the credit card of infinite limits. I learned so much, and despite the negative elements of the experience, I managed to do amazing things with it, such as appear on radio and organize a cross country tour as I moved from Montréal, Qc to Victoria, BC.
At this time, several copies of the original run of Broken Pattern still exist. If you’d like to find out how to own an exceptional relic of my life and support a young, enthusiastic artist, check out the store or contact me directly.
That’s all for now. Enjoy the photos!